Monday, August 16, 2010

Update on Raja

Raja has gone to live in a horse paradise here on earth. His owner retired him, a couple of weeks ago, to a friend's farm about 50 miles west of here.

This place, by all reports, couldn't be better for the old guy. There is real grass, shade in the daytime, shelter at night and in the winter, and playmates: several other elderly horses and a few cows.

I talked with him a lot about those cows before he left, assuring him that he would like them very much. That was before I knew there were also horses there.

Since Raja was pretty much only eating grass anyway, and ate as much of it as we would give him, I'm certain he'll be very happy--and probably gain back a lot of his weight.

His owner reports that after two weeks he seems to be doing fine and enjoying himself. The folks out there told her he's been seen "prancing around," which is more like the Raja of old. I'm very pleased, and very hopeful that he'll fool us all and live a long and happy life after all. Blessings, old friend!

Further update, 31 August 2010. Raja's owner told me over the weekend that Raja has finally passed on. Though he was seemingly happy and doing well, one morning they looked out into the pasture to find Raja stretched out where he had died in his sleep. I guess it was just his time.

The wonderful people who had adopted my old friend buried him near the top of a hill out in the pasture. It's a lovely resting place for him. Sleep well, sweet friend.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010


[This is an entry that I posted on my other blog, "It's an Alchemical Life" several months ago, but when I re-read it just now, I decided to post it here, also.]

April 1, 2010. Yesterday I finished Linda Kohanov's The Tao of Equus. It's one of those books I've been meaning to read for years, but it seems that now was the right moment.

Kohanov is one of the pioneers of equine-assisted psychotherapy, which takes advantage of the horse's amazing power to facilitate emotional growth, healing, and transformation. Her book gives many, many examples of this kind of healing, starting with her personal story.

The book is especially relevant to me right now as I begin to think seriously about using horses in my own psychological practice, on a professional level. Galahad and Midnight have brought about profound changes in my own psyche, and the stories in Kohanov's book resonate strongly with my personal experience.

Near the end of the book, Kohanov relates the story of a woman whose horse had recently died, but she still felt his presence, as though he had not "crossed over." In a waking dream, the woman encountered her horse, Wally:

All of a sudden, I was walking through this beautiful field of grass with a single tree. The image went from normal to sepia tone, and I saw a chestnut horse grazing in the distance. Someone was walking with me; it felt like my spirit guide. I said to this person, "Is that Wally? It must be; his coat is so shiny."

Wally looked up and recognized me. I could see he was wearing the halter I had gotten for him. He came cantering toward me and said, "Is this the new place where you're boarding me?" I said, "No Wally, you've died. You don't have to wear that halter any more."

The halter unclasped and fell off by itself. Wally bowed and trotted off happily toward the horizon. As the vision faded, [I] heard [my] guide explaining the rhythms of the soul's journey through life and death in a way that suggested this world, the one we believed to be so solid and stable, was really the dream.

As I read this, I burst into tears--but these felt like tears of relief. Suddenly I began to breathe--great, deep, gasping breaths that slowly subsided. I felt like I hadn't taken a deep, free breath for longer than I could remember. I kept hearing, “You don’t have to wear that halter any more.” (p. 333)

Suddenly, some deep part of me understood that the restrictions that I’ve had around my heart and spirit are finally loosening. I can let go of the internalized cultural restraints that chafe and restrict me. In my head I heard the words, “The animal knows what it needs.” By giving my true nature its head, perhaps, I can the trust the internal knowing that shows me my path through life.

Today, I find myself deeply happy and more relaxed than at any time I can remember. What a blessing!